I loved pharma. Had great pay, a great boss, a flexible schedule and the opportunity to be around really fun people. But the one thing that killed me was my lack of authenticity. My success depended on the ability to win over people, and it became more and more important to be liked and admired. My ego found it advantageous to say and do what pleases others – at the sacrifice of my own authenticity.
Let’s face it, life as a people pleaser has its advantages. If I agree with you and do what you like, I convinced myself that you will like me and accept me. And I did it over and over again, and didn’t realize I had lost myself so completely to the outside world I didn’t even know who I was any more. Until it hit me… I could no longer clearly define who I was. I had sacrificed what I believed in and denied myself my own loving. I had lost contact with my true essence – the part that makes me unique and special.
I wanted to find her again.
InĀ a world filled with people pleasers, subterfuge and manupilation, I wanted to remain authentic to me, for my own peace of mind and harmony, so I could look in the mirror and love me. I did not want to feel like I had to be someone else to be loved.
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