Maybe I don’t need love… right now.
Maybe I still need to expand my horizons, to travel across different oceans, meet more people who will inspire me. Maybe I just need to have freedom – the freedom to choose where to go, who to be and what to do without having another human being to think about.
Maybe I still need more time to figure out what my heart really needs. Maybe I need to learn more about what kind of love I want and cleanse my heart. Maybe I need to love my heart the way no one knew how. Maybe I need to be for myself everything I’ve been asking people to be for me.
Maybe I need to be my person for now. Hold my own hand. Maybe I need to learn that I’m my own security. I’m my own safety. I’m the only one who knows how to calm the chaos in my mind and heal the wounds in my heart. Maybe I’m meant to kiss my own scrapes and scars because I’m the only one who knows how deep they are. I’m the only one who knows how much they hurt. Maybe I need to learn how to mend the broken pieces. Maybe for now, I’m the one for me because I need to learn how to live with my pain and past — all of it. Maybe I need to learn how to fix the years I tormented myself. To reshape myself. To redeem myself.
Maybe all I need right now is me because I need to work on the relationship with myself. Maybe right now I need to figure out how to make the relationship with myself the most beautiful and most meaningful relationship of my life.
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